Friday, December 30, 2011

New Year, New Blog

I'm not much of a blogger, but this is something I have aspired to do in the past year and has become a resolution for 2012.

This past year has been one of many changes, challenges, heartache and joy.  I've lost two uncles just this year and have been to more funerals than I care to list.  I've made some wonderful new friends and grieved with them at the loss of the daughter they had hoped to adopt.  Thom and I have hit some tremendous lows in our marriage but fought through it and have come out stronger.  And I started homeschooling my son, which has been an incredible challenge and a joy all at the same time.

A big part of my life has been sewing . . . creating, designing, turning a piece of fabric and some thread into something beautiful.  I jumped in feet first this year hoping to launch a new business.  Hoping to be able to contribute to our family.  Hoping to be successful.  Honestly, I have never felt like more of a failure in my life.  I sit back now wondering where to go in the coming year.  Do I have what it takes to continue?  Do I keep trying?  Or was I kidding myself all along.  Maybe I'm not talented enough, not creative enough, maybe it's just not God's will for me.  I NEED a creative outlet.  I NEED to feel like more than just a frumpy housewife with each day blending into the next one -- the same old thing day after day.  So . . .that's the question I need to sort out now.  I don't think giving up that easily is in my nature.  But I'm tired.

In this next year, I am hoping to find more joy in the little things of life.  I'm hoping to find a way to slow down a bit and just be.  I'm hoping to feel filled up enough to have the energy to give back to others.  I'm hoping to be a better friend and let people in a bit more.  I'm hoping to find ways of being healthier and more at peace with my ever aging body.  I'm hoping to see myself the way God sees me . . . I'm hoping to find purpose I guess.

I'm looking forward to all the possibilities for this next year.



  1. Karen, you are an amazing, strong woman and an inspiration to all. You are so talented and I look forward to seeing more of your work, I envy you having such a creative outlet. Keep up your beautiful work and believe in yourself the way others believe in you. Look around you and you will see the great support system you have, all you have to do is reach out! I love you and I am always here for you! Have a beautiful 2012!!

  2. Karen I pray that this year is so incredible that it just leaves 2011 in the dust! I pray huge blessings on you!